It's My Life And With HER

2011-10-08T14:56:00.002+08:00

Time passed so fast, but my heart passed the time so slow....

my heart still same like before me, still love u as well..

but u never got to know these. doesn't matter.

just wish u happy all the time and pass with happy =)

i do bless and wish for u. since we cant be back, im ok =)

i also dont know why my tears still will drop because of u. phew, looking at your picture, looking at our picture that i never deleted for any of it. hmm~ memories kill me =(

but i still will go on with my life, still will walk alone with the love that me to you.

the spirit come from there?

still the same things. I Love You.

2011-09-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

long time didn't touch blog already. i had stop viewing it for 2 months, because i no dare to look back the blog.

however, today i had open back this blog. just met u for may be little times, the moments being with u is can't be describe. the feeling that i thought i had put down u, it's appear out so suddenly. that time, i just realized that seriously i still love you as much as before.

i don't know what's your feeling. but what can i tell, i love you.

the moment looking at u, i feeling it's just the things to fulfill my life. It's only u. the people who ONLY can fulfill my life. i thought i can forget everything, i thought i can let go everything. lastly, i didn't even put down a little things of u.

your appearance just had influence my whole life. the moment without u, the day just like a cloudy day without sunshine. the moment being with u, its can be describe as the sky was blue with white cloud, it's bright~ u the only can be make my life walk brighter in the future.

i hope that i still can have the chance to take caring of u, to love u, to get your caring, to get your love.

I Love You.

2011-07-13T02:42:00.002+08:00

两个月，还是会流泪。我真的很想你，不知道为什么...

真的好不习惯这样的生活，可以再给我一个机会吗？

好想念你....

当初选择了你，我从没想过会有这么的一天，心好痛....

不过至少你比以前开心了很多...

并非是件坏事，要活得开心点！

我.....爱你.............

2011-07-07T21:34:00.002+08:00

一天一天的过去，她却一天一天的深深呆在我脑海里。

什么忘记，我办不到，她.... 也慢慢的，也离我越远。

天意，我玩不起。只要你得到你所说的快乐，那我怎么辛苦，伤心那又如何？

值得的。

希望我们还是会有缘份的碰在一起。

一天又一天的生活在没有你的日子，就如在黑夜中生活，看不到光明。

希望你过得开心点。

2011-06-28T19:10:00.002+08:00

=) hurt me again and again, donno what u want.

think clearly please, think wisely please, if that's what u want, just go on.

i wont stop u anymore. said i miss u so easy, suddenly change to another person when another day.. its so scary~

i also don't know why, until now, im still so miss u, im still so love u, im still so need your hugs, im still so miss the moment u smile to me....

since we are love each other, why dont u give me a chance to love u. give me a chance to get back u.

your words, hurt enuff for me. phew.

have your happy life, live with joy. =) i do wish for u always.

2011-06-19T05:52:00.003+08:00

the feeling of miss her, it's cant decribe... what i can said is..

im totally cant let her down....

however, i still hope u are coming back to me.....

but... may be im just think too much =)

good luck......

have a good life there~

2011-06-17T11:55:00.001+08:00

min xin...... i do need u........

=( have a safe journey over there.. i cant accompany u but i can wish for u.. everything will be alright~

2011-06-16T03:21:00.002+08:00

it's so unfair.why just want seperate me n her into two world?
i still love u as usual as i do..
i will do well my part~
i'll still loving u...
i'll still waiting u...
the time of waiting u...
i'll still will doing something meaningful...
u had wake up me... let me found out what i really need...
future + u , the only things i need in my future......
<3 u

2011-06-11T05:48:00.000+08:00

just hope u can understand. =)

look clear.

2011-06-05T03:37:00.002+08:00

phew~ she might had forget me~ i trying to control myself not to text her...

scare to disturb her life~ but just now when i went to capitol , i saw a girl 90% look alike her~ phew... i dunno is that her or not, even though no dare to look at here...

at the end heard her voice and i just got it its not her, is i think too much..

she does enjoying her life well without me.. and i think i should disappear from her life too~

im useless, cant get her heart. its what i deserved to get. i will tried my best to put down all~

by the time, i do wait u, until u have ur new 1~

=) have a good time and enjoy ur life~

i'll bless for u..

2011-06-03T02:14:00.002+08:00

hmm.. anyway, lastly do know its the end of us.

i will tried my best to accept all these stuff.

may be now not, may be future yes.

wish all the best for your future.

however, im now yet single while waiting for u until the time that i can wait.

do wish u still can come back to me anyway, i'm welcome u anytime.

because of my love to u is much than my words. and the words are doesnt mean anythings.

i do prove for u, now, future.

I LOVE YOU!

2011-06-02T02:04:00.002+08:00

still cant believe until now she still thinking like this one....

even though i do still so heart her, but she just give me a disappointed things....

hope she will have the better one that wont quarrel with her one...

i failed to get her heart ady... =)

wish next generation de us will be better than now! =D

thanks for giving me so much sweet memories ever!

i do love u till the day i numb!

hehehe <3

2011-05-31T04:06:00.003+08:00

time passed so slow..... so slow.... i do still miss herrr.........
arghh.... driving alone back melacca from kl......
so wish to have her beside me to talk with me to avoid i feel sleepy... thats what she did always when we driving no matter where we go, what we do....

anyway... may be its the end for her about us.... for me... i do wish it's just a nightmare for both of us..... after a certain time.. there will be nth for us....
anyway.. i do wish u are enjoying ur life now... wish to see the happiness of u... then i gonna promise what u want.... u want i disappear from your life.. bout this... im very sorry... i couldnt forget u.....

even u are saying the hurt words for me... but i also duno why la... i do din feel angry bout u also... because i do love u so much.. so whatever u hurt me.. i also still the same at there loving u....
even u said im act out all these.. but thats the truth... im really lost my way without u....
u should knew that, after my form 5 life.. it's just be with u... im pass all the things also think u at the first...

suddenly u are stay away from me... i really couldnt accept all these kinda of things.... but since like what u said.. ask me to suit my life...
fine.. i will gonna do it.. but not without loving u.. is let the love to u become 麻木...
then i think all the things will be gonna fine.......

pass ur life happy de... i do wish for u always....
since i really hope u are my true first love also the last of my last true love....
but the decision also at ur hand....

i miss you.

2011-05-30T05:35:00.002+08:00

what i can do i had do for u...
next, is depends on how u think and how u gonna do...
i do hope that u can give me a chance to prove that im ur dream boyfriend..
will my action prove to u everything.
even though, until now.. im still the one who take the promise.
i din even look for an eye for a girl.
as well as i known for now, im the people who love u till the max.
i only hope u give me a last, LAST chance.
i won't use talk to prove things for u anymore.
i will use my action to prove to u.

i love u.

2011-05-29T11:08:00.002+08:00

2 weeks plus, no matter how tired am i...
at last i also fall asleep for no more than 4 hours.. totally insomnia...
she is the first girl, the first girl that can make me feel so.... so important for me!
argh, lost her news, her heart.. totally lost up my way..

i do miss u much, i hope u can get it...
regret so much for my being, but i just want to end up to let u know that, im still miss u much here.
but i shall knew that, what i wait is useless and equal to 0..
i just cant know that.. so fast u ady have the 1 who wish u take care of u..

i still very miss u.....
=(

2011-05-28T09:52:00.001+08:00

hard to trust that..

until now i still can't accept everything.

one word,just wish u to back to me.

nth more else.

i treat u as well as my future wife.

but i did know if true love gone like this, it doesnt mean true love.

i dunno what had happened~ phew~ still missing u to the max..

2011-05-26T12:10:00.002+08:00

speechless with what u had treat me.
totally disappointed.
I'll just wait for u over here.
I won't disturb u anymore.

2011-05-25T03:57:00.002+08:00

依然在想念她，但一句也不敢跟她说..恐怕，她又再不理我..

她，依然可以很正常的不理会..也许她不想说，但我却不敢问..每当她问，有什么事吗？我却不敢跟她说，其实我很想念你..

她可以一天都不理会我，但我却办不到，我努力的不去烦她..但到最后，还是忍不住地发些短讯给他..如果她有挂念我，为何她可以控制自己不找我呢？

也许是我想太多了吧..一个简简单单的爱情，既然变成了今天所照成的恐怖地步..

但每当我跟她聊时，她却给予我一个令我觉得她跟本不开心的感觉..我真的不知如何是好，迷失了方向..很需要他的关注和疼爱..

我对自己还有你信心..如果这问题可以被解决，之后的我们，一定是比从前快乐，比任何人幸福..我不会再次令你失望了..我已因这件事而深深的了解你..

有很多事，我知道我不说，并不代表我不懂..

我朋友如果可以影响到我，我们就不会可以坚持到现在..只有你，只有你..

只有你可以令我改变一切，令我不顾一切的为你复出..

没你在我身边的日子，真难过...

我依然守着我们的承诺..直到我的生命截止..

我可以为我们两年多的我们，放弃十多年交情的朋友..

试问你了解我对你的爱是有多深吗？

杨敏欣..我..

很想念你........

2011-05-24T11:22:00.002+08:00

你...

是否已不再对我有任何思念？

不是说过我们要手牵手走到最后吗？=)

但我反而对你的信心是十足的..也许，有时，往另一方面来想，事实却没你想象的那么恐怖，残忍..=)

我办到了..真的..但我真的希望你也办得到，或许你会觉得到另一种感觉，但给予我...

能够给到我机会来爱你的上天，我是不会轻易的因悲伤而放弃..

也希望彼此都可以把问题给解决...

也许，这就是没得解释的.....

我爱你吧....

愿意的复出，不要求回报..

2011-05-23T19:44:00.003+08:00

人生生活就是这样~

为什么我会爱上她呢？

因为她美吗？不不

比她美的，何止上万个

是因为她心地善良吗？也不

好心的，到处都是

那我为什么爱她爱到那么的陶醉？我不知道

你们知道吗？

爱是什么？谁能解释？不是说爱是两个人的努力，换来的结果..

那我一个人，努力一点，再努力一点，不就可以了吗？

我努力奋斗过，也意志消深过，也得不到结果..

生命不就由人来决定吗？

但在我人生中，爱上了你..却给予我的奋斗,努力，开心，伤悲..

即使有多么辛苦，我也愿意的，敢敢的去爱..

因为我不会后悔..

2011-05-22T13:44:00.003+08:00

心已碎了..

不敢再爱下去..或许你会找到更好的..

没了我，你更快乐..

是时候放手了..

怕我再爱得更深，也是我一厢情愿.

不必再为自己而掩饰..

既然你不想这爱情巨细..那我们就分开吧..

也许这是我们的缘分已决..我会活得更好的..

既然我的缠着,是如此令你反感..

我决定放弃，至少，你会比从前快乐..

我或许不是你的真命天子..你可以找到更好的..

如此的爱情，就算我几努力..

也没用了..因为一支手是永远的拍不响..

累了..彻底绝望..

今世做不到情侣，希望来世可以重逢..

我已尽我能力了..怕了...

时间可以冲谈一切..

也有了我的自由..也许这样是最好的解决方法...

2011-05-22T03:50:00.005+08:00

刚才又错过了跟他聊天的机会，真是失去那可以联络你的机会...

但我真的陪不到你... 因为，胃痛,又在发作..但这一切，不想告诉她..怕她会对我反感了..怕她觉得我在拿同情的理由..痛到在床上，起不来。但无所谓，这也可好让我的胃小些些..其中一个减肥方法？没有啦...是吃不下...但我跟你在一起时，我都把其实我可以吃得下的食物都拿给你..不想你饿到~所以每一次你来找我，我都不介意我自己的肥瘦，只是...要你吃好，住好..多贵的食物不是问题..

我不一切的照顾你周到，也是因为上次你跟我住，我让你饿坏了..我再也不会重犯...跟你吃东西最喜欢的是可以看到你吃很多很多...一脸吃东西的你，却不知道，我心是多么的开心..我们吃东西时，我一直会问你，要吃这个吗？那个吗？=）都是想你吃肥点..但你现在有个那么好的表哥，带你去吃好料，真好~

我却现在对肉也反感了..天天都喝汤还有吃几口饭，但是我够了..刚才还拿妈妈煮给我吃的汤偷偷的倒掉,不要她担心..掩饰到我也可以去做演员了..不想朋友们，家人..都担心，对不起我骗了你们...你，我却不懂，你一向来都那么了解我..但如果你问我，我也会选择不跟你说，不想再添上压力给你了..大哥，二哥，弟弟都很关心我，谢谢你们，谢谢你们的关心..我没办法，也要骗..对不起，我不是有心的...我接受到你们的关心....

但我最希望的，当然是她的问候，她的关心...

刚才在我wall,放了英文歌，但我却没去听，我听华语歌！要学习唱歌，有些在车听到的歌，觉得很有意思，歌要播完时都回特意把车停下，听听那DJ会讲刚才播的是什么歌..但我华语很烂，却每一次都听不到！真是没用，想要问朋友，又怕他们说我..但不要紧，我会慢慢的去学华语的..我fb换了密码，那密码你也懂的..只是，真的不惯，还是一样..一打开fb，我还是会type "***********" 这个密码..我已提醒自已，还是一直忘记.. 我真的太爱了..

掩饰，很辛苦..我要你回来,不用再掩饰了...

但这一切，太难了....真的真的很爱你..现在的你，是否开心吗？

如果你不是，就回到这里..我还是那么的爱你，疼你，等待着你..

每天麻醉自己，还是不可以没你的日子..不是时间问题，而是我对你的爱..还是那么热..试问要怎么去适应，跟本想也没想.....也不想去要拿寂寞的生活，我要你的讯息，声音...即使是你骂我的讯息，我也甘愿，好过你对我的冷酷，不理会..

你....已让我成长..让我了解原来没了你的日记是我跟本承受不了的日子...

我会给你幸福，快乐，空间..但时间..

好想念你的声音...

看见你的微笑，也让我心软下来...

我爱你.....

杨敏欣...

不想看见你不开心....

我自私，是因为我爱你，不给别人夺走...

相反的，如果你自私，我可以为你的自私而不去认识任何人..

你是我的未来，你是我的永远..

有得必有失，我了解..什么要求我也可以答应...

只要你回到这里，一切都是值得的....

<3 <3 <3 你............

睡得甜吗？有想我吗？

2011-05-21T19:29:00.002+08:00

刚才她回我，但一切都像一场梦~

我掩饰了，为什么她回我？或许上天玩弄我吗？还是...叫我不要轻易放弃...

其实，我并非那么坚强..外表已购憔悴，心灵跟是脆弱..我不向别人诉苦，因为我不想他的名子臭..但她彻底的误会我，以为我讲她坏话..其实，我在朋友还是任何人，我并没讲你半句坏点..我是要他们了解，我爱你..我做错了，要挽回这份爱情..只是你，不让我有个理想的解释..试图我如何接受？但一方面，我也希望，你给我的理由，是真的..不要介意他们所说的话，因为在爱情里，跟本没有谁对谁错，只有谁珍惜谁，谁不珍惜谁..

我刚才，得到了许多安慰，但全部都对我无效。最终，我还是放不下你..刚才的讯息中，你说你没背叛，我想也没想，我相信你..我朋友说我傻的，睡觉不要睡，捏带自己。但试问，他们懂我对你的爱有多深？没人理解我。包括你，你叫我过得开心点..说我没了你，还是可以活下去..我刚才说要打dota,也是因为要掩饰，让你觉得，没了你，我一样可以生活。但你错了，我骗全世界的人，却骗不了自己..

我真的太在意这份爱情，一点舍得的心也没有。去club?一点兴趣都没..跟他们说我要喝酒，也是偏出来的..也许，单单喝酒在家，我可以接受。但我依然不喜欢去club,因为我有了教训，我还是沉诺着我们之间的答应..我不理会他们怎么想，我只在乎你..我傻，我真的一点所谓也没有，因为我是真心的..既然如此，我宁愿傻傻地爱你...我希望你可以向我看一看，其实还有一个从不放弃你的我..在等待着你..

上一次，我因为打dota,弄到我们差点分手。我很害怕，努力的去挽回，成功了，我拿到了教训，立刻把dota从我电脑删除..因为我知道，游戏并不重要，还有你比任何东西重要，甚至我自已也不足以你相比..与是，我也成功了不玩了，每天想着陪你..陪你..这一切，你也有目共睹的..我宁愿当你一辈子，听你话的Bi，也不要到今天的地步..既然在两年多年前的你，选中了我..为什么不要敢敢的去爱，敢敢的去让我照顾你..

不要轻易放弃，没有任何人可以预测明天会发生什么事，但现在的我告诉我，我的确对你的爱只日渐提高，并无降入..所以我希望你会给我一次照顾你的机会，给我一个人错的机会，跟你说声道歉的机会，还有说声.....我爱你....这三个字...这里是我为一可以表达我的真心话..

你的旧号码，我依然还很不想的去分开，因为我太太太太太希望你能回到我身边，我很需要你的关心，你的劝告，你的安慰，你的温柔，你的爱与恨..现在的我，已不是从前的我，我长大了，足以够与值得你去试试还有敢敢的去爱..不要怕没面子..面子足以对的到我们两个，就可以了..我可以忘记你的过去，我一样对你有信心，你也可以做到的...相信我..

杨敏欣，看开点，或许你会认为我们才是绝配。

有时，等失去了才会去珍惜，但我一次又一次的比之前更爱你..

我们之间的缘分，真的让我一心想要把你挽回，太多的巧合了..我们爸爸的生意，我们妈妈的年龄，我们所要表达的..都希望对方了解..不需要去讲出来..

除了你，我更不会给任何人一个爱我的机会，因为我的心，已锁在你那儿，怎么也拿不出。

我很想见到你...

太想念........

你.............

杨敏欣......

2011-05-21T13:14:00.002+08:00

就算我不想分手又怎样,
你都已经不爱我了,
那么我只有做我最后可以为你做的事是………分手吧.
我知道感情是不能勉强的,
让你辛苦的话我甘愿放手,
因为我不要看到你辛苦,
我只是喜欢看到充满笑容的你.

曾经…你是我世界里的一部分,如今我在你心中却什么都不是… 

或者

你那已经变了的心,
我还可以改变它吗?
可以的话,
我一定会挽留你

或者

我那颗曾经给过你温柔的心将不复存在,
因为你的不爱,
所以我的心因你而碎裂了.

不敢再爱了~

2011-05-21T06:00:00.002+08:00

Just now i disturb her even said her much again... Haih.. But i really feel so hard to accept that actually she is really happy for now... Or just the only fake laugh and smile to others..

But no matter how... i still couldn't face that things that happened on me...

Argh.. u do give me hope and give me confident that u will come melacca find me again... u left ur things here, i really wish that u really only dun wan choi me or wanna give me a BIG BIG lessons.... But it just wish.................

Sorry for letting u feeling im so disturber again... But i share my everything with u... Only with u... Just now went to eat vegetarian with mummy... Eat a little bit because my person was fully thinking of u! heart is still so down, memories is fulfill with the love on u... I really cant forget...... Cant forget...... U know.... even though u treat me like this, my love to u... Never less... sometimes, think that u really dun wan care me le.. u do till like this... but its only took me may b 5 mins to think that, after that.. everything come back as usual....

See the chat from u with your friends, it does bring me hurt~ old din go, new de din come...?

I couldn't trust that, in these 2 years plus, u really din love me? u still can like the status... are u agree with that? Hmm... as so long i know u, u are a serious girls.. wont take love as a game... thats why i will get hurted.... Last time u told me... u got the feeling of suicide... But today u wrote im the person who childish.. it does hurt me.... nowadays i have, also because of too love u...

U told me that last time, did i think u childish...? no.... i think that u are my one.. because a people can love me until so crazy.. she does care for me, she do think much because of me...

But today....because of your words, u made me touch, and i had decided to love u more and more.. who knows.. today things happens....

anyhow, i really hope we can really having a nice talk.... any problem, solve together..

having problem.. must solve, at least we do make it to the easiest way, don't just avoid for the things being happened.. i know that my bro got called u... that time ur voice is just like going to cry also.. so i never feel that u are happy with the ending by the way...

i msg u so much, is i out of control... sometimes, im just taking out the phone, press the msg that i wan to send to u.. then after finish type, closed my phone.. make it as i had send out, may be is the best way to let u feel more comfortable... i hope time can let u think clearer, who does care u more.. ur words to see in front, but can u make it? I miss ur home i miss ur home!

Last time we having big quarrel, after i do reach sitiawan.. then u and ur bro come lumut to take me... after reach ur home, u had forgot ur angry to me... why nowadays.. ur angry is never end....

Time pass and pass.. u do give me so much things.. cant just dont give up on me suddenly at now times? take your time to breath.. but why cant u just relax urself... may be u think in this way, u try to think opposite way... see what's u get... i really din lie to u.. u may try...

no people could understand me... give up? ask them 收皮....

may be for u, u also wan me to do that... but.. isit we being continue of this love, isnt will make us love u and love me more each other...?

if these time the problem is solve, i can make sure there.. we gonna love each other more.. more than b4.. 784 days i love u, u give me more 784 days i also feel its not enough for me, u give me 78400 days, even 784000 days also not enough..

因为我们今世的爱情，下世也会再从遇。互相照顾....

守护着对方..

杨敏欣，我对你的爱是来自于真心..

我知道你感受到的...

但为什么.. 你不将所有的东西讲给我听...

我愿意为你付出一切,我希望，我现在，可以睡下去...

好让我身体休息...

我要让你知道，你的坚持.. 是错误的.....

因为，很简单...

3 个字，我爱你..

就足以证明一切...

我还是那么的疼你.... 无时无刻的想着你...

<3 <3 <3.. i miss u!

2011-05-20T20:14:00.004+08:00

whole people seem like gonna faint... 4 days ady... couldn't fall asleep, today sleep at 6am, but wake up with a shocked dream at 8 plus, forcing myself to being sleep again, lastly i wake up at 9.30~ the time is really so hard to pass..... Still can't having any meal..

I.........

Really miss you.... Need your comfort.....

How do u make it, we everyday are sms.. no matter when, where, what...

Or u had changed....... But i don't mind everything, i just waiting u....... Always.....

Even now i walk also feel no energy... But it's okay, may be i should deserve it.....

The things that i had done to her, she replied to me these..... Saw the post that b4 us until now de us....... B4, no matter what happen, u just will angry, u just will need my comfort....

Now.. u over there had your fren.... u having joy with them... But at least u are happy.....

I'm totally fail to do that.... hang out with frens, i thought i can forget the things... But it's never... It just make me think u.... Why u are so attracted me..... Because...

I LOVE YOU...

I really hope that..... u can live happily.... got anytime i din fulfill your needs? i do tried my best to give u all... because i love u with whole my heart..... u dislike this, i don't do this. u dislike that, i will avoid that... I'm not giving reason to myself... I'm just want to u know, how deep u are inside my heart.... Nobody can talk to me... so i just can write my feel on here......

Yong Min Xin......

Dear.......

i very like to call u baby~ because u call me babi~

i like to call u babe~ because u call me bibu~

i changed for u, try to imagine back b4 de me.....

And now de me....... Seriously it's totally different....... My target is only for u.......

Even how my friend look on me, i don't care at all.... They said i 重色轻友.....

I don't care these, rmb u told me u rather me 重色轻友... Yea, i make it for u.. Stop go kl, stop go find my fren... Just they come to find me, or meet up at kt.....

U need freedom... But u closed my freedom... I don't mind....

Because i know.... u just care for me.. u just want to control me for my own good...

U are a very good girlfriend, it's too perfect for me.. Even my parents also din care me as much as u did.... I really hope, i can get back ur care... ur news, ur loves.. ur guide.. ur voice....

I miss u so much...........

Feel to give a dot to myself....

But i hope i can see u.. it's make me feel... The loneliness.... i almost couldnt hold anymore.....

I need u......

我们....可以重新开始吗.... 你曾经在我们分手时要求我重新开始.. 不到几分钟.... 我也答应了...

因为我知道.. 你对我的重要，你让我尝试去爱，为什么你现在可以因为挫折而放弃？

给自己一点时间.... 给自己一个让我好好的照顾你的机会.....

我会做到最好的给你....

就算要重新追过你，我也很乐意！

杨敏欣，我很想你.... <3

杨敏欣，我很想你.... <3 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-20T04:27:00.003+08:00

Even tears also don't want to change sleep for me... Sleep, please give me some...

3 days din eat things, my stomach fill with water, water and water.. mummy ask me eat, ok la.. dun wan she worry ma, ma eat loh, after eat a little, vomit out the things. I'm so sorry for them, make them disappointed..

Suddenly think that, the sit up that u ask me to do, after that time early of april u come to find me, u scold me very lazy to do sit up and pumpin. But, i do make it afterwards, my target come back to hometown also because of wanna success ur target on me. I do well everyday, but i din tell her, i told her i lazy, i din do.. But what i want to give her is suprise.. She did not know.. Why sometimes we make somethings for them, they couldn't know.. they just use their mind to control their love.. not with the feel..

The suprise, i really hope she do get it.. but its hard then i go pick a moon. everyday fren ask me to hang out, ya they do well in their part. but i totally disappointed them, until they scold me.. so what? i'm wanna less their worries, but i really can't less a secs of thinking her.. i use my mind to control, but i'm out of control.. I'm really out of control.. Not i really want to disturb u to letting u calm down, but it really.. without sms u, fb msg u. i really dunno who can i share my things with. Sorry....

U said im 烦, but in other way u know im just trying to msg u, hope u could reply me.. hope can get the msg of u to call me Bii..

躺着，就会看见你躺着对我微笑的样子，躺在我怀里就像个宝宝的样子..

好甜.......... 好甜.......... 但...... 嗨.......

整个人都没力了，哭到眼睛也快跳出来..

信任，我虽然给不到。但，我对得起我良心。我知道我没做，我就不可以认..

一旦我做了，你说我，我立刻认。这我们也试过...

我会尽我所能去挽回这份爱情，我希望你可以给我一个好可以让我们重新开始的机会。

我过分，我骂你，是因为我在乎你.. 我吃醋，是因为我喜欢你..

发呆，是因为想念你.. 伤心，是因为不想失去你..

虽然如此，我华语也进步了不少，从不会变到只少会一点.. 在这里多看报子，都是因为要认识更多的华语字，可以看多一点你有时会send给我的note that contain 华语字..

你，随时随刻都出现在我闹钟，让我对你的感觉还是依然不变..

我不觉得我选了你是个错误，反而让我觉得，你是我不可失去的人。

每天得不到你消息，真辛苦... 又担心...

你突然的不理我了，让我觉得，这世界再也没有意义了..

你对我的影响力太大了..

睡眠！快点来找我...

好想念你，好想见你... 但却怕我会更伤... 心好重...

下个礼拜会去KL庆祝朋友的生日，只是吃顿晚餐... 目的也希望可以见到你，看着你，跟你说一声我爱你.. 真的不想失去你，短短的几天，却拿了我像几世纪的时间。

I miss u, Yong Min Xin..

I love u , Yong Min Xin..

I do want to marry u as my wife..

I do want to take care of u as my angel..

I could promised to take care over u forever..

I could promised to love u not only this generation, but also next generation..

2011-05-19T09:15:00.004+08:00

She needs time, freedom, happiness..

Time i can give, freedom i can as well as she tell me, happiness is the most important for her.

Impossible i can because of her happiness and i do let her do anythings that she want..

because i do care for her, do love for her.. since i had knew that u'll hate me..

It's a mistake, but it really take me a big lesson.

I do know i can rather give up of friends to change u. May be many people said im having a stupid being, but who care? the stupidness of me to her, as long as she could feel it then i feel its enough.

But, sometimes she couldn't feel that i'm care for her, she just thought i'm angry for her. Actually i'm didn't, and i won't, u the one who i love, i din sayang u, i can sayang who wor?

In these few days also can't sleep well, used tears to change my sleep.

3 days le, i din even eat enough half bowl of rice, and this time i really know its very serious. You told me you rather see i no face to others, but got face to u. But i do, sometimes the work i make to u u couldn't feel it de... =( but if i purposely let u know means we are showing u, not doing to u with our heart.

True love won't gone.

Anyhow, i hope u could take your time then think properly once again. I really learn a lot of things from u. And i really wish that u could think for me.. At my side, i had think at your side and i feel regret that kinda msg from myself. Regret but i'll recieve it and make it as my lesson. The red shirt that u given to me, if u wish, 2 months, i can make it in 2 months. Seriously.... I won't take your words as kidding anymore. I'll do everything for u with all my heart.

Hopefully the time can help u to calm down yourself.

I hope u could give me a call or text in soon. I do need u so much.

I do put all my heart in our relationship.

我也想了很清楚，如果你肯原谅我，我要在我身上刻下你名字！让你永远永远的陪着我做任何事情，我真的很想念你。

我也希望你可以把它当作一个在我们爱情里需要经过的挫折，一旦过了，我们肯定会比任何人幸福快乐的...

相信自己，也相信我未来可以带给你的幸福。

我会给你的幸福，一定会比这世上的人多。

我爱你，比我想象中的还要深。

杨敏欣，我爱你... <3

我希望你可以叫回我 Bii!

2011-05-17T04:28:00.002+08:00

Couldn't sleep....

The heart of without u is cant be let me to continue my journey.

I can't lost u, since the day we start together.......

We had promised each other to leaving somethings to show to each other if each other request to break. Argh we din make it.... Regret so much.........

No matter how i'm, who am i, where am i, my heart also having the only u, Yong Min Xin.

I'm very very sorry. Seriously it's my mistake to do that. But i really don't know the things was came so worst. Seriously, when i'm feel so dumb, i just simply type out the things. But it's not the truth. You are the one who understand me the most, impossible u don't know about it.

Between our relations, they are no knowing others girl even having chat except.... coursemate for assignment......... the loyal of my love to u u couldn't know? it's impossible......

no matter how long, i also will wait for u.... cz i really love u very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very

very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very

MUCH!!!!!

I really miss u so badly... don't u?

=( we had passed so many things to being together and so long....

why u just can look it gone so easily.........

i knew im over to u.......

but in this 2 years plus....... when did i 无理取闹.....

i purposely make it..... but i had knew its a mistake!

u had make me changed a lot, changed mature.....

u are my everything....... everything...............

i love u...............................

i can't lost u Yong Min Xin..............

Don't.........

Don't........

Once Again I Tell U, I Love U Badly!

2011-05-16T18:40:00.002+08:00

Sudd have the hard feeling from here, i knew that i had did wrong something to make u feel uncomfortable. I'm really sorry for u for din take care of your feeling well and din understand that u are in sick. But from this 779 days we being together, we had passed so much things. Never of these 779 days im lack of love to u.

These few days from ur reaction i had got that u seem like don't wanna care me at all. And i'm just dunno how to tam u. May be im a failure bf ever for u, but what i want to tell u is, my love to u is never change and couldn't change. Without u, i really dunno how to continue my life. May be my words just like kids being, but i just out from my true heart to care for u, and like u told me, u must find quarrel with me to get back me to acc u. May be i also have that thinking, im really sorry.

I said so much also for ur own good, if i didn't care for u, why did i need to say so much nonsence to interrupt u. I'm here to let u know that im really care for u. Today early in the morning i'm having 3 bad dreams. The cry making me head dizzy and goes back to lay then having the 3 bad dream. It's can means that u are the one who the most important ever in my life, i don't wanna lost u. I couldn't accept that. Since we are having problem, we must try to solve it. Is i useless, din understand and try to do so. I'm feel so sorry for u.

KT , my hometown. The horrible place for me, why is it we will quarrel always when i'm at my hometown. I do care for u over here everyday. Try to get more $ to get u something, to make u happy. But i scare it will too late, im stupid its okay. I just don't wanna lose u!

Once again, i'm gonna tell u that U are not gonna disappear from my heart and my life forever.

Since the day we being together, u are being my future partner. I had make it so, did u? I really want to know your feeling! sometimes i rather u scold me for however also dun wan u just silent and giving me a smile. it make me think more.....

I LOVE U , Yong Min Xin.

Without u, i can't continue my journey of my life.

U are the one who control my happiness and sadness.

I need your hugs and kiss BADLY.

I love U my dear.

<3 <3 <3 <3

It's Pain n Hurt.

2011-03-06T13:18:00.005+08:00

-The Sweet Memories Of Us.

700 days, 700 days.. I'm really never love a girls for being so long.. Since the first day i fall in love with u, we plan for our future in phone, sms, talk, and others. But, isn't it u really so easy to put down me and just make my things as invisible so easily?

U will just think that, kherkhang- liar,dn acc u,fren at first.

But did u think b4 what i had giv out for u? never kay. the love show by me u never get it but u just try to get the hurt, why? i'm not dong anythings that betray u.

Since it's already happened, i just hope u will give me a chance that can save our 700 days+ relationship.

Last decision also on your hand, the word that u type to me. argh, damn pain into my heart.

I just hope u can think one more clearly.

the moment i wanna close my eye also think bout u, the moment i closing my eye also dream about u, the moment i wake with tears also think bout u.

In this 2 years, im just lay on u. sms or talking phone. i dun wan the day end like this. a lot of things with u already become a 习惯. 你是我为一一个可以依赖的人，我是真心的想向你道歉。请原谅我。

I love u- it really mean that in my heart.

My heart was fulfill with u only, Yong Min Xin.

I truly love u and miss ur hug badly. :'(

Please give me a last chance.

请老婆原谅，我知错了。

2010-09-22T03:56:00.004+08:00

在生活上踏错了一步，造成了一个很严重的悲剧。

压力不停的向着我而来，怎么挡也挡不着。也许这是上天给我的一切吧~一年多的感情就这样完了。是你教我写华语，是你改变我的生活，我不但在生活上不能没有你，我还需要你来完成我生活上的一部份，让它成为世上天衣无缝的爱情。

毕竟，是我犯了一个另你的心很象玻璃从空中掉下来碎了。是我不好，真的很对不起，希望和机会是人创造的，你还记得你总是不喜欢我打讯息的字和标点符号吗？你说很难看，我就一天一天的慢慢改，因为我爱你！<3 <3 <3 <3 是爱到无法自拔！有时候我都控制不到我对你的爱是有多么的深！！

我一直在祈祷，希望上天可以让我有机会补回我的过错，让她能原谅我。我真的再也不敢了。等下九点是我的考试，看着书没心情，一直想着亲爱的爱人。我可以放弃一切，甚至我的生命。

上天，如果您有什么办法可以帮我得到她的原谅？！我不介意必须付出什么代价，钱财，前途，甚至死----我都心甘情愿拿来调换。因为爱，让我发觉到一个很特别的东西，就是每当没了她在我身旁，我都会无时无刻的想念她。我爱你这三个字，是我对你不可和美办法去除的单号~

这也许是我唯一第一次用华语来表达我对你的爱，但如果你要我天天都花几个甚至几十个钟头来写，我都不介意。

眼泪一滴一滴的往下掉，所有的泪水都让我想着你。你累了，好好的睡.....

我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3
我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3
我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3
我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3
我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3
我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3 我爱你 <3

求求你给我最后一个机会... 我爱你 <3 杨敏欣！
i love you more than my words. the love that me to you, its infinity, its unlimited.
I LOVE YOU <3 <3 <3 <3

2009-10-30T00:03:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to u
happy birthday to u
happy birthday to xin xin
happy birthday to u.........
Happy birthday dear for ur 18th years old..
muacks~ im sorry that i cant pass your birthday with u.. but as i do, we still can pass through phone till very meaningful oh.. the time see u smile see u laugh, my heart aslo face out a smile face.. im so glad to having a girlfren like u MINXIN.. thanks for being with so within the time we together.. muacks...

Just want to wish u happy birthday again to u over here yah baby.. muacks.. wish our relation can stay forever =D
miss the time we being together, muacks

love u always..<3 u

2009-10-29T00:22:00.003+08:00

phew, i also nearly forget bout blog le.. really long time no view blog and write blog already..
im quite busy within this 1 and half months.. too many things happen suddenly..
such as... im the student from a jungle place UNITEN and now ady bcome the student of MMU at melacca..

hmm, can counted that i facing a new life over melacca now.. at here everythings is still ok within this few days that i reached.. im late for 2 weeks ady, so i must chase back the all courses that had being teach. however, jus like everyone said, melacca food is really TOP!
the price is cheaper than other state and its so delicious.. *(so hope to having food with U over here =D)

hehe, time pass so fas.. hope that i can having a good time over my new enviroment..
hmm.. busy busy hope my normal life will be coming to me soon..

everytime i write bout blog, sure got case with my love de la.. u all know why?because this blog is cre8 to let me write bout her! haha.. hmm.. now is the 215th days we being together.. anway, jus din meet up for a few weeks.. the miss feeling is strong, anyway.. same as usual, sure hope to meet up u soon! SHE, really always acc me no matter what happen.. support me what i do.. i really appreciate it so much..

thanks so much~!! muack.. 215th days, we still chat so happy, and.. din found out we hav any problems between our relationship.. may b for others we being together 215 days only , so short.. but as i know.. every moment of us is passed until very meaningful.. dun worry, we gonna we together 215 weeks and then 215 months and 215 years! believe it or not?! believe it.............

u're always in my heart, no one can replace u inside my heart..
i missssssssssssssssssssss eeuuuuuuuuuuuu so much la dear....

By: MinXin's KhangKhang
love u always..............................
Muacksssssssssssssssssssssss

2009-09-17T09:11:00.002+08:00

phew.. i still havent sleep.. sch just left 1 day.. but i already back to KT frm there..
bcoz almost whole school malay students were back to prepare their coming RAYA..
the school canteen jus lik ghost canteen.. just hear the wind blow sound and its no other people there..
well, i not going to sit bus back frm there coz its already book by others since last month, so i sit weng liang's car back with a lot of malays together.. its bout 8-9 cars.. the journey frm KT to my sch jus nid take 4 hours with car.. but we had spend around 6-7 hours..!! damn man!
may b its malay style =) keep stop and stop~ drink lah , toilet and so on..
the whole journey i had counted, its around 8 times stop jus for a short journey!
phew, its a damn....... =.=" MALAY VERY DAI SAI

by the way, i'm still cont to contact my love as usual through phone.. she want to meet me as fast, i hope to meet her up soon!! i miss u too dear~ your bi also at tryingbest to meet u as fast =)
she miss me crazy xD right bo? dear...
hahaha...
yesterday i fall asleep until around 10.. that tiem i also going to back..
my love is so worry bout me =) my phone had pop-up 5 miss-called and 4 msg from her..
can shown out she is so much worry bout me!
hehehe.. muacks baby!

im tired tired.. the things that going to fall me down, she will at my side to help me hang up the things then push back it!!
she is my only love~ Yong Xin Xin!! you're mine...
love u always <3
Muacks..

morning everyone.. its time to let me having a nap.. but not a sleep..
WooOoHoOooOOoo~~~!!!!!!!!

2009-09-05T14:15:00.004+08:00

this pic was drawn by my love thats for me =) hehe.. muacks~ i love u too

hmm.. so long din write blog already... phew...
this few weeks i'm facing a lot of problem.. hmm.. raya? malay raya... we also raya? haha.. coz malay raya very big one.. all ppl also will holiday too~ but not lik chinese, holiday is chinese only but malay din care bout it.. thats why we live in this such place name MALAYsia.. hehe..

time pass really so fast, jus a while me and calwin already know each other for 13-14 years ady... and a while , he gonna leave us soon and going to Russia for his medic education at 23 sep.. we all frens starting to planning to make a BBQ for him.. coz he this ppl already famous with 头可断，头发不可乱！haha.. i also feel so happy got he this neighbour for 13-14 years~ but his studies and my studies.. its jus like the distance sky and land!!! haha..

i still dun really like my sch... the life at there was suck for chinese.. any chinese.. but its ok.. i try to hold myself over there.. can how long then hold how long~! pheww... this few weeks also quarrel with HER.. but now everythings had turn to well at all.. its good.. but she still got facing other problem that i hope can share with her or else pass all the problems with her..

phew~ SHE jus pass her JPJ driving car at 1st of SEP and the price of oil also increase around 20 cent at the day.. was that a great news? yeah it is!!! haha... congratz dear~ hmm... me and her together also 5 months++ , half year is coming to us dear! hehe.. so far so good.. phew~ baby baby~~ muackss

I'M SoRRY DeaR ~!

2009-08-21T04:46:00.003+08:00

argh.. i cant sleep again... still at missing my love by the way..
hmm.. b4 was my sick , so that i jus keep on rest and less accompany her..
until last time em at kl also din accompany her... make until she was very low in mood and feel unhappy...
while sorry i had said many times ady, i also wan to say one more time at here...
DEAR , BI REALLY SORRY OVER HERE!

when i was sick, is u take care of me.. so that my sick jus can recover so fast..
coz of u i jus can cure my sick so fast..
if my life less you.. i really cant pass it anymore..
and yesterday.. coz of wanna chat v u, i stay at home and waiting the phone battery charge and charge.. but after an hour, the percentage had up until 50% ady.. so that i feel that we can talk quite long for it le.. then i go out and jus waiting u free..

but starting to chat......... jus around 10mins... our mood become low and low..
phew~!!! i really hope that we can be normal de us... jus like before..
i love you i love you i love you!!!
before de us.. talk phone.. smile ah laugh ah kidding ah...
muacks!

对不起！！DEAR!!!!!!!!
Muacks.. :D be happy always...
love u always de BI..

2009-08-07T15:13:00.002+08:00

phew.. get sick pulak.. tot is h1n1~ luckily not.. haha.. hmm, jus din eat a suit meal for a quite long times only.. so that will get sick lah.. my sch also a lot of student get diseases dy.. its so scary and danger when heard about h1n1~ pls dun come to me...
thiw few days lar.. keep sick.. so shit, make until her keep worry bout this and worry bout that, scare that i leave her too.... sayang lar.. i wont leave u de lar.. =)u're my sweety what.. hehe..

hmm.. still feel sux of my sch at there.. the system at there worst.. aiks.. still nid to hold for a few years.. could i? can i? shall i? aiks.. blur.... the thingy that i ate at there is totally unhealthy.. hmm.. i hope to meet up her soon lah.. hope my sick cure soon , so that can meet her up soon dy..hope so lah...

nowadays H1N1 so damn dangerous, everyone must take care and beware of this diseases.. phew~~

dear dear dear....... i'm coming to u soon~ be patient yah~ muacks~ =)

2009-07-19T01:21:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my birthday lo.. hmm.. i cant go find my dear.. so that we jus can pass through phone only~~ but its ok, i past till very happy.. very worth for me..

she sing birthday song for me then pass v me de.. then talk till so happy lo.. the birthday present she knew that cant celebrate v me.. so that she bought a box of chocolate for me since early lur..

THANKS DEAR~！

hmm.. b4 these , i had pass through so much problem during my education to my uni~

if not my dear , i feel that i cant pass through this all problem..

thnaks dear anyway, muacksss...~ thanks for passing v me these so much problem ohh~~ thanks..

most geng de is, is i run out of sch when the first week of my education on uniten..

i still run out of uniten for the orientation.. i run go my dear's home.. then keep try to find the best way to solve.. that time i had decide dun wan to continue my study bcoz of all of malay over there..

bt think think back.. i no choice lo.. my dad also not giving me to KL for study coz of my fren all over KL... scare i mix v alot of my fren then no heart to cont study anymore..

luckily got my dear acc all the time..

so that i had back to the hell again le.. then i stay at there a week, but i also cant... so that i back home and try to discuss v my parents.. but they sitll not allow however.. then after discuss v my dear, she really beh tahan until scold me gao lat.. until i duno what to do.. is that i had to work if i din study more.. how about my salary v jus a SPM result..?

at last, i back to my sch again.. i had to hold for a few years.. then i will be freedom after that.. i hope that can v u my dear.. i wan marry u xD hehe.. muackss..

anyway, i very hope can b v u forever...~~ muackss

feel glad to be v u lurr..~~ muackss~~

if not u.. i duno what im now.. i think i what also no dy now.. thanks dear~~

hope that we can appreciate our relation and stay it forever! muackss!!~~

u have bright the way for me to continue my life.. muacks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love u dear love u dear~~
love u love u and love u~!

2009-06-24T10:22:00.002+08:00

a while i'm in kindergarden, a while im in primary sch, a while i'm in secondary sch, now...
i'm gonna to university for cont my education!!
its just happened very fast~ u count the day one day by one day, its really slow..
but don't u try count back how many days u live in this world? its really too much!
days passed very fast.....

i'm gonna go to my sch this saturday, and hope to meet up my love this july~!
i know when i meet prob when study such as pressure and what else..
she's the one that can help me solve the problem~
because she enough understand me..! thanks dear for so understand me, muacks~!

this few weeks no write blog, coz im quite busy..
and busy v my Min Xin everyday, pai seh pai seh~~
keep web cam, talk phone non stop.. wow, its my first time so geng in my life~! xD
gonna near 2 months din meet my love already, so damn miss her!!!

however, hope july we can meet up soon.. and we together is around 90 days! means 3 months..
gratezz!!!
yesterday she still sing a few song for me.. i hear until my eye close while at outside standing..
its touched my heart~ i love the song u sing for me! =)

and my sha gua dear yesterday talk phone until T.T cry...
she was over miss me until she was cried.....
i will try my best and find chances to meet u up dear!
i trusted that we gonna meet up soon.. cheer up dear....

Min Xin~!
Min Xin~!
Min Xin~!
Min Xin~!
Min Xin~!
Min Xin~!

I Misssssss Youuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tag 春带

2009-05-30T14:02:00.003+08:00

幸福點點名遊戲規則回答下列問題，並貼到自己的網誌or報台寫完後，自己多加一個問題然後傳給十個人，可以點被點過的人，被你點到的人你要去跟他說，我點到你了。寫完後去跟點到你的人說「我寫完了」不可以不寫喔，不然幸福就會跑掉喔...!

1.我的大名: Law Kher Khang
2.我的生日: 18-07-****
3.誰傳給你的: Babi Poh
4.說出五個好朋友: 朋友多过你吃的米
5.生日想要得到什麼禮物: Sport Car
6.近期開心的是: 做懒
7.近期壓力大的是: 大便大不出
8.未來想做什麼啊: enjoy my life
9.有沒有喜歡的人: got , Min Xin
10.同學會要回去找老師嗎: 会，找Bak Moi
11.跟誰出去最幸福: Min Xin
12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了: 之间太多误会，喝杯茶先
13.跟情人出去最想去哪：二人世界地方
14.聖誕節要做啥: be santa claus
15.最想跟誰過聖誕節: Min Xin
16.有沒有起床气: ingat saya sudah mati ke? fucking quest.
17.有幾個兄弟姐妹: 4
18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的): 她唱的-->带我走
19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的): Black Eye Peas-->Bom Bom Pow!
20.喜歡什麼顏色: rainbow
21.上廁所會不會先沖水: 有大便在里面就冲，没有就不用
22.愛不愛我：爱你搞懒？哈哈
23.喜歡男生還是女生：Min Xin
24.最想大聲說什麼: 妈鸡白！！！！
25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所：nonsence~
26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲: 不会，尿从嘴出的
27.誰很欠打：Mimi, Balak Kong, Nia Seng
28.現在很迷什麼: 女朋友
29.睡相很差：没有吊
30.現在的時間：不用理
31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：sure , coz im busy v my GF
32.今天天氣: Beh Kih~
33.你懷孕了嗎: cock question
34.大學生一定要玩的活動: talk nonsence together
35.Favourite food: 妈妈煮的菜
36.喜欢看什么?：女朋友

WTH man~ apa tik tek ini? xD

dun wan tag ppl, will make ppl busy only... o0o haha~~

2009-05-26T19:57:00.003+08:00

hmm..
tis few days duno what happen.. i cant open my blog..
haha.. may b some problem v my line ba >.<
hmm... yesterday play dutsal.. i play until leg injured..
what to do, had to walk slowly lah.. hehe..
and witing for my dear caring and loving me =)

and today is the 60th day we together !
wor... muackkkk ~~
but we not together... so that we cant celebrate together~~!!
but now we celebrate through phoen also can ba >.< muackkk

dear dear dear... love u la love u la!! muackk
i miss u oo.... >.< waiting the day come for we meet~ huhu..! muacks

2009-05-17T11:21:00.002+08:00

this 2 days.. i make my dear feel so much unhappy de...
problem is out from me.. coz of tis sux game, DOTA.. i hang out v fren...
until din acc my dear... dear, i'm sorry...
yesterdat when wanna sleep, i feel that game only wad..
u're more important u knw!! u more much important than a game!
i will acc u more le dear.. so that won't let u b alone anymore, i'll be with u no matter wad happen, no matter how long.. i also will always by ur side o dear~~
coz u're my only one! no one can take ur place in my heart last forever.. until my life end, my heart also hav the only u, dear MinXin~~

yea, i admit that i not so like u still mix v ur band ma... but after yesterday, i jus realise that i really misunderstand u.. i tot u still wan to join them to perform..
but u said u jus go back there jus hav a look only... i knew that u had join da band for few years.. miss back ur band is so much normal de things wad dear..~
so i din mind that u go back hav a look.. i will no mood anymore le..

wad i hope.. jus to see u happy like b4.. then happy to b v me, i happy to b v u.. then that's enuff... ur smiling , u tam me..
all i nid from u.. ur caring.. i recieve it le... that's no another second person can make my heart fall v her anymore dy.. jus except you.. my dear.. Min Xin...

I love you I love you!!!!
dun tink da things ok? i jus wan b v u right now, future also same...
nothings gonna change my heart to u, that's i love you!
jus you ok! Min Xin!
muacks!! 5201314~! this word is truely from my heart dear!
i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and misss uuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-10T03:15:00.002+08:00

what was going on on me tis few days? how come i so busy?!?!?
hmm.. the stupid me.. busy until sometimes din care for my dear~
i'm sorry dear for making u unhappy tis few days..
i'm blur now.. my mind blank @.@ !!!!
blank blank blank!!!!
i love u dear...! that only i know from my heart~!!
that's you!
since that time i travel v u at KL, after reach here..
i late sleep, early wake.. until me was very tired...
i'll trying to rearrange my time.. so that i can chat more v u dear~
accompany u sms, phone u N sumore~~~

u're sick, fever, cough N sumore~ how could i din worry bout u?
u're my girlfren! i really feel wanna take care of u! but i cant...
between us are still hav a quite long distance..
take care urself dear.. i knw u can~ coz u strong xD muacks!
i want dear i wan dear i want dear!!!
ask u eat medicine, u say u dislike... then u should rest much more!
coz of wanna chat v me, u rather sleep at 2am, sometimes sleep in front of laptop T.T
then wake at 8-9am... u're not robot dear... u're my dear!!!!!! T.T

dear ah dear.. rest ah rest ah rest ahh~~ u tired ady.. 2day was public holiday..
take ur time to rest at home k?
ur caring, ur loving, ur everything was in my heart now..! i recieved dear!
i know that u very love me, worry me, and always wanna make me happy dear~
u chat v me at msn, web cam v me ^.^ i feel so happy u know~~
i miss u and miss u!!! so fas 1 week had past.. our KL travel from plannin now bcome a memory o dear, hehe... if can.. i really wanna stop dat time.. and past it v u until the end of my life T.T

yea, lik what u said! i'm ur Mr.Right! and it wun be changed!
i'm ur BiBi! u're my DeaR! I Love You , You Love Me!! That's us!!

really hope that the meet of us next time wil b coming as fas we can o.. =)
muack muackk muackkk muackkkk!!!!
and lik what u said and i said.. we not hope to be together last forever!
IS we must to be together last forever!

my dear sure at sleeping sweet now =)
nite dear, sweet dream xD
i love you and i miss you =)

2009-05-04T12:21:00.007+08:00

during enjoy the meal v my dear.. love u dear <3

Kenny Rogers v my dear xD she so love to eat

enjoy steamboat v my dear at shabu-shabu xD

hmm.. i just back from KL..

i went there to travel v my dear~ kaka..

i went there earlier a day because wan to pick her at the another day at bus station..

first day i reached KL i live at AH POH cousin house.. haha.. then hang out at TIME SQUARE until nite and we meet up AH TAI(Tai Minn Jiet) over there..

when nite, AH POH drive Myvi to pick up Ah Lau and Abang Min.. then we went to FTZ ASIA..

at there lim teh v wee kong and ah thong... then we went to FTZ to having 2 match of dota...

me , ah thong , ah tai , wei min and ah lau until 2.30am.. haha we won 2 matc of dota there.. kakaxD then we see the match of ManUtd VS Arsenal (result of 1-0).. then sure back home sleep lah... lol.. tmr wan meet my dear le what... haha..

during at KL time v my dear, we enjoy so much..

then we always go gai gai.. when nite we holding each other hand then gai gai for a long times..

haha... so much enjoy da life v her... i so hope that the time will stop at thr.. and it never end..

Hmm... What a enjoyable travel...

a lots of fren say wan meet me but all put aeroplane, AH POH, WEE KONG, AH LAU...

if meet them one more time i sure beat them lik dog.. hahaha...

dear, when we still can meet again? i wanna past my life v you..

i wanna travel v u.. everythings of mine add up v you..

will bcome WONDERFUL~!

whie i'm tired at there.. but i really enjoy so much at KL v her..

I LOVE YOU DEAR ! hope will travel many many and many places..

got her by my side, she will care me in everythings... T.T dear...

hehe...

I Lurve My MinXin!!!!!

Muacks!!

Love u Love u Love u!!

2009-04-27T15:31:00.003+08:00

huh?!
what a hot weather..!
feeel dying v tis hot weather..! must drink more water..
going to kl in tis few days coz of wanna meet her xD
so must keep me in healthy.. if not how to go meet ppl?

hmmm..
she was so hope to meet me soon..
but coz of da ticket havent buy yet..
she is so worry that cant see me.. xD
hope to get her frens news soon that ticket was bought~
then we can meet at KL le lu.. go gai gai m watch movie, wow..!

hmm..
sitting in an air-cond room ~ feel so much better than dining room..
weather was fcking hot~
that's all =)

Dear, i miss u ^.^
Muacks

2009-04-23T10:35:00.002+08:00

Hmm..
yesterday, i feel boring when at CC..
then i open HighStreet5 for having a look inside..
inside da game, i sure knew some friends frm other state..
a girl inside da game, also is my friends since last year..
we just chat v each other thru game.....

However, i feel she wun lie me in a serious case..
she says that her life was end, and keep crying...
but i duno wht happened on her, i tot she quarrel v her bf or wht else..
at last, she told me she had stomach cancer...
if she can past the next 2 years, then she'll be safe...
if not, she will leave tis world.........

WTH?!?! its first time.. i heard tis such things frm my fren...
my mind blank... i duno wht can i do jus can help her...
jus feel, if can help her... i will try my best to help her up..
wht should i do?!

Dear.............. i nid u by my side now....................
i need you.....
miss you.......
my babi dear~

2009-04-20T01:07:00.004+08:00

Dear...
i scare u cool v me, i say real..
in my eyes, u'r the most nice girl..
i'm sorry to let u wait again..
im so bad to let u wait.. while i knew that u cant wait..
im really sorry dear...

If jus now not got things happened, i already reached home cam v u..
i really cant found out why today u so cool le..
T.T.. may b is i make de ba..
u'll jus always the best for me dear...

while i'm tired, but i can see u.. i feel it's worth u know..
i knw u always call me bibi, bibi...
but i heard dy i got so much happy..
jus i had make u feel dulan ady... sorry dear...
we hav so much thing to chat de o dear...
we always hav so much things chat one de... =)

dui bu qi.....
i'm trying my best to change my tis sux attitude..
sorry....

i love u dear~
Muackss~

Hmm ~ She's My Nice Dear~ <3 My Dear

2009-04-15T02:47:00.007+08:00

Hmm..
now was 2.50am already, going to sleep..
but still feel hav somethings to write b4 i go slp.. =)
my fren, 1 by 1 leave me =) almost for their education..
at last, all will leave me.. and i will meet new frens..
Sometimes think back, vry wan stay at form5
all fren stick together all the time, laugh, sad..
wht also together to solve it..!
coz we r true fren! but wht i facing now.. is a part of my life that
i nid to face it... =)

But!!!
iwun meet other new lovers ady, coz i got my dear already!
that's her ! Yong Min Xin! xD i not only hope to be v her 4ever..
is must do it ! Sometimes.. i really asking myself..
is that really my girlfren? my love? Hehe..
why? coz i also cant believe i got her! haha.. funny rite?

But she was belong to me now~ she'll be mine!
19th days le dear~ wops... i'm missing u le dear ^.^ MISS U ALL THE TIME !
nid she accompany me all nite.. she tired also will accompany me..
sometimes.. i really hope she can by my side.. i can look after her..
no matter she tired or feel sleepy.. she also chat v me thru phone~
i'm really thanks to you , MY DEAR !

Know why i knew that she really tired?
when chatting phone.. she will talk talk talk v me..
jus when closed phone, we sms a few msg the she will fall asleep ady..
i'm thinking that time.. should i talk phone v her more longer? or a while can already?
sometimes nt i wan close the phone dear... is i scare u're tired.. i wan u rest o..
but when i talk phone v u.. mostly everytime also more than 30 mins!
haha.. coz i really feel so happy to chat v u.. until i duno da time..
jus talk a while, already past half an hour, or an hour already !
ihope she can get a best life! no tired, happy always, enjoy everthings..
coz she's the one who i love a.. so i nid to succeed her life ^.^
no her, no me.. she's my everthings.. dear~~ hehe...

She so caring in her person.. feel that she vry care me n care!
i love it... actually dear, u din giv me freedom i dun mind.. coz i'm yours!
i like u lock me at ur heart.. i nvr blame u.. coz u do everythings also for my own good..
i knew that, so i nvr blame u control-ing me ^.^
sha gua.. i knw u scare i say u din giv me freedom..
so u got tell me, 'i giv u freedom a'..
dun b worry.. im not thinking that~ i'm feel nice get u control a!
DEAR, im so love that u can control me.. hehe... so happy for that ^.^
that not control! is dear worry for her husband mah.. HAHA!

You angry me coz u worry me, u scold me is for my own good
you worry me coz u love me, u did all things coz of me
i feel so enuff to hav u tis dear! enuff for my life already... !
It's really enuff ! DEAR ~ THANKS~! I LOVE YOU!
I'll love u till da end of my heart beat.. and last for 4ever! =)

i miss you dear ~ minxin dear min xin dear..
i miss you i miss you~
and love u always =) muacks~

Sorry Sorry Dear Dear ~

2009-04-11T02:36:00.000+08:00

Today..
i did a things that make my dear angry..
that i hang out at outside until midnight !
well , after spm.. my fren got always ask me to out..
first , i out until jus 11pm then i 'll back home ...

After that , slowly slowly...
fren ask me to back at 12, then 1am , then 2am..
3am/4am also hav... well , everytimes i reached home,
i sure get my dad scold for a few minutes..

i already normal v that kinda of life.. get dad scold..
after me v her together.. i really realise that
she hope i can always accompany her always..
i knew that... but today... also was las 2 frens at KT
they gonna leave for study at KL...
so that i accompany them for my last day..

BUT !
my dear at home online wait me for 1 and ++ hours..
i really wan to back home to accompany her..
but i had break my promise.. me at CC ~
WTH me do like that to my dear >.<

I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~
I'm Sorry Dear ~

Start from today , i will reach home by 12am..
to prove to her.. my promise to her and i will suceed it..
dear pls forgive me =)
except any special case.. if not i wont at outside after 12am..
Sorrrrryyyyyyyyyyy DEAR ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Muacksss ~

Min Xin DEAR ~

2009-04-08T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
our relationship had reached 2 weeks lo..
she is still so care me, always phone me, and sweet sweet!
she is the best in my heart =)
but she always call me babi =.="
but im happy too.. coz she happy to call me that.. so i also feel
happy..

Her life was boring, but i can't by her side accompany her..
feel so sad bout that.. we r miss each other all the times..
including dream also dream her !

Min Xin dear , is sha gua.. coz i let her cry , let her worry..
by the way, i wun repeat my wrong anymore
wun let her worry anymore..
she is the one who can success control me..
she is the one who giv me a happy love
the one who giv me feel my life is great after add up her as my love !
the one who giv me caring , warm .. everythings ~
i feel great b v u dear ~ hehe ...

babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u
babi dear Min Xin , i miss you <3 u

Yong Min Xin , I Love You xD
Muacksss ..

My Promise To U , DEAR ~

2009-04-07T02:06:00.000+08:00

Dear...
i had make u worry me le..
really feel so sorry for that , but ur worry..
its means so much for me , i so hope to see u.. coz..
I miss you ! 2-3 days din see ur face le ..
so i jus add some speed on driving back home..

I making she worry ! T.T
she treat me really so nice , until im speechless..
i really cant found out her bad points..
coz in my eyes , she was perfect for me ...
and i dun wanna lost her , she is a perfect girl for me le ...

Everythings that i do , every words that i said to her
i will think of her feeling first ...
is that this words i said will hurt her ?
is that this words i said will make her angry ?
is that this words i said will make we quarrel ?
is that this words i said will make she feel sad ?
that's bcoz i love u dear !!

Hehe , i knew that u treat me really vry nice..
and the things you do for me...
it's really make me touch , and feel wanna hug u now !
but we'r far... but nvm, i can wait for u ~ xD
until we go holiday , its our target now ! haha ..
really wish that can sucess ..

I'll try my best , not u let u worry anymore..
coz i knew that u already tired , let u wait scare u will angry ^.^
coz i love u , i dun wanna make anythings taht jus will hurt u
or make u angry , so i jus rush ooo ..

DEAR , thanks for everythings...
Muackssssssssssssssss ............
Min Xin ! i miss you ! Mwahs ~!
Ukui dear .................. i love you a ..

she JUST ALREADY BE A PART OF MY LIFE . <3 u DEAR ~

2009-04-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

Yeah ~~! Today i saw my DEAR le ! she jus waiting for me for an hour .
I'm sorry DEAR . Need u to wait me for an hour . Kolian ....

At 1.12am , i saw her in webcam ! I'm sure happy then !
Phew ~ 3 days din saw her , jus lik 3 years lik that ...
The 1st eye i look at her ~ The feeling , so nice ~! It jus make me feel wanna hug her .. I miss HER !

She's still so much pretty v her smilling . I love her smilling , its so sweet !
DEAR , i hope that can see u always smile to me ! Its so great !

But the time is already 1.++am , she tmr got work , but coz of see me
she dun wan to sleep until so late , i'm touch by her !

She's just like my everythings , my life cant without her .
Hmm .. Really hope that our relation will stay longer and longer
and hope it will never end until the end of my life ~

No HER = No ME =)
DEAR , u means so much for me .

However , me and her are starting to planning whr to holiday le ,
really wish to meet .

I need her caring

I need her sweet words

I need her smile
I need her laugh
I need her tam
I need her in everythings !
I need her love !

Muacks ~~ DEAR , I LOVE YOU !
I'm already belong to u . =)
Promise that i will trying my best to giv u 'an quan gan'
including using my life to do so , i will !

Wish that our relation can last forever !
DEAR Min Xin , I LOVE U !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She Is My Everytings . I Dun Wan Lost Her . <3 Her Always .

2009-04-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

Today was the start of 2nd days i din saw her . I vry miss her .....

Yesterday nite , i make her cried for 2 times .

1st tings that i make her cry is , she miss the time that we past

together , bcoz i remind back the tings we did for a weeks .

She cry ! That was the first time i hear her crying voice .

I feel hurt by the way , the tears that she drops , jus

like a millions of needle that appear in my heart , its hurt !

I feel lik crying too , but i was at outside .

So i hold my tears vry tide .I LOVE HER so much !

2nd things that i make her cry again in more a few mins .

I'm feel sorry for her , but i promise to myself included god

i will treat her as the best as i can , she is the only my LOVE !

DEAR , U'r my everythings . Muackssss ~!

Got u by my side , u jus like a light that show me the front road
that i must walked through .

U giv me a very perfect love ! I LOVE YOU ~

I vry miss the moment that we past , the sweet memories that
given by u DEAR ~! I MISS YOU !

I promise that will take care of you , that my promise for u DEAR ~
I LOVE YOU , DEAR ~ Starsssssssss ~~